Hey hunny! Its sugalump :) I know its now your birthday yet, but its coming so fast. Time is just moving at the speed of light, I barely have time to catch my breathe. Of course, I miss you everyday and its been so hard to live on and be genuinely happy without you here. Taylur is at West Chester now. she loves it. You would be so proud of her. Shailah aka SP is at Powell now. She doing great and everyone has stepped up tremendously for baby girl. Its everything you've always wanted. Mommy is okay. She has been really going through it and I cant even imagine such a pain she feels. She's strong like you though. She reminds me so much of you now is so crazy. Wow its kind of scary sometimes lol! Shaliah is the younger version of you she's beautiful sis! she'll be sending you a gift very soon lol! As far as myself, just know that I know you've been here with me this whole time. And I just want you to continue to stay with me forever. I cant tell you enough how much you man to me and if it wasn't for you I wouldn't have made it this far. Give Cierra and lil grandma a hug and kiss for me. I pray we are all together one day. And trust me, he will not get away with what he did! I put that on my life! I love you Hunny always and forever your sugalump! xoxo

good morning my love, i just want to wish you abelated HAPPY BIRTHDAY. i know your birthday was Saturday but,i couldn't bring myself to say it and your not being there. i miss you soo much you can't even begin to amagin. i find myself talking to you all of the time as if you were still here. you may not be here physically but you are always be in my heart forever. i just can't bring myself to let you go, it HURTS SOO BAD!!! Shailah Girl, is doing just fine, i know you would be proud of her, i am. im sending you a birthday gift from me to you I AM SENDING A DOVE TO HEAVEN WITH A PARCEL ON ITS WINGS BE CAREFUL WHEN YOU OPEN IT IT'S FULL OF BEAUTIFUL THINGS INSIDE ARE A MILLION KISSES WRAPPED UP IN A MILLION HUGS TO SAY HOW MUCH I MISS YOU AND TO SEND YOU MY LOVE I HOLD YOU CLOSE WITHIN MY HEART AND THERE YOU WILL REMAIN TO WALK WITH ME, THROUGHOUT MY LIFE UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN,MUCH LOVE ALWAYS MOM

GOOD MORNING, MY LOVE. JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I TRULY LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOO MUCH. MY HEART HURTS SOO BAD, SOMETIMES I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW I'M GOING TO MAKE IT ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT YOU. I KNOW THAT GRANDMOM IS THERE WITH YOU, AND THAT SHE TAKING CARE OF YOU. TODAY IS JANUARY THE 4TH 2016, THE BEGINNING OF A NEW YEAR. ONE THAT I'M REALLY NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO, BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT HERE WITH ME. BUT I KNOW THAT WE WILL SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN SOON. MUCH LOVE ALWAYS MOM